December 2009
21 posts
I'm afraid that my insecurities and jealousy will...
sometimes i just want my boyfriend to be over and...
it is difficult to realize that some of your...
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I FUCKING LEAKED ALL OVER MYSELF AT WORK AND HAD TO LEAVE EARLY BECAUSE THERE WAS A BIG SPLOTCH OF DARK RED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE BUTT PART OF MY DRESS AND I WAS EMBARRASSED AND FEELING LIKE I WAS GOING TO CRY AND MY CRAMPS HURT AND I DIDN’T HAVE A COAT OR SWEATER LONG ENOUGH TO COVER IT STUPID PONCHO NOW IM GOING TO THE GYM I GUESS TO SWEAT IT OUT OR SOMETHING STUPID LIKE THAT I DON
T KNOW...
I say dumb things
Camila: yes
i see your philosophy
for the first time in my life
i see clearly
now that i don't spend money on cigarettes
i can buy more TACOS
“All that ever holds somebody back, I think, is fear. For a minute I had fear....”
– Lady Gaga
“Yes, I was infatuated with you; I am still. No one has ever heightened such a...”
– Sylvia Plath
Stop thinking about dying.
I think about dying.. 10?20?50? time a day.
What if i choke while eating? What if i go to reach for a cd while driving and veer off the road and die? What if i slip and fall and crack my skull in the shower? What if someone crashes into my car? What if i fall down the stairs and break my neck? What if i drink too much and get alcohol poisoning? Or worse, choke on my own vomit.
And on and on and...
This big fat, fat guy has a crush on me
he weighs like 400 lbs i’m not even exaggerating it makes me want to cry/puke/die and sort of kills my self esteem because hey i’m not penelope cruz but hot damn i am way better looking than him and out of his league just looking at his face makes me want to throw up everywhere but mostly on him gross ugh why can’t he just move back to florida and never talk to me again and go be...
holy mother of all that is sacred look at this...
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